I'm Stuck at a Hospital and I Can't Leave - Part 05

Hello all.  I'm still trying to figure out all of this, and I don't know if I am any closer or not.  I do have a couple updates on what I have done and what my plans are next.  I also want to address some comments and questions I have received from all of you wonderful people.  Thank you all who have commented on my posts and those of you who have messaged me directly.  You are a big part of the drive that I have.

So I will answer questions that have been put in front of me, only in the order of length of the answer.  If I have broken up any comments/messages I have received, I do apologize, it is just easier this way.

I also apologize for the length of this post, as I expect it to be longer than any of my previous ones.

I was asked if I had some sort of head trauma, either through these events or from the accident.  The answer is no.  When I got hurt, nothing hit my head, and I didn't smack my head off of the floor when I fell.  Since the accident I haven't hit my head either, so I think I can rule that out.

Another question I was asked was if I experience any black outs, loss of time, or a sting/sharp pinch when I make an online post.  The answer is no.  Even when I went to sleep, I made the post and passed out a few minutes after, but that is just because I fell alseep and was exhausted.

Someone suggested that I call a cab, and I force the driver to get out or kill them, so I can drive to my parent's house.  I'm not going to do that for a few reasons.  Firstly, there is no guarantee that another taxi will come.  Secondly, there is no way of knowing whether I can actually leave that way, or if it will result in a similar experience to  when I walked away from the hospital only to arrive back at the hospital, or maybe the car would just break like the ones in the parking lot.  Finally, I really don't want to harm anyone that I don't absolutely have to.  Sure, I am prepared to defend myself, but I have no way of knowing how far the reach is of the force keeping me here, and I don't know if this innocent cab driver is hanging around for me, or if when they leave they go back into normalcy.

So I will not be doing that plan.

One common question/request that I've received was to post pictures online.  The short answer is that I can't.  To fully explain, I don't have perfect service.  Any sort of picture or MMS I have tried to send hasn't gone through.  I have tried sending picture messages, posting on Reddit, sending pictures through email, but they don't send.  Certain apps and websites wont load either.  I can't access Facebook, Instagram, Spotify, Dropbox, or Google Drive.  Hell, I can't even access Wikipedia half of the time.  When I stayed at the hospital before, I didn't have the best service either, so maybe it is just the type of building that a hospital is?

Also, before anyone asks this question, the hospital where I was taken after the accident and had the surgery was close to two hours away.  Like I said, I don't live with my parents anymore, I moved away for work.

Someone suggested that maybe a coworker slipped me something before I had the accident, and that maybe there was no accident at all?  While I do like how out-of-the-box this is, I don't think that its possible, for a few reasons.  First, I have a decent enough relationship with my co-workers and I try to stay on their good sides to avoid a hostile work environment.  A couple of my co-workers I actually have a friendship with.  Second, none of my co-workers seem to be the type to have connections like that.  I know that someone is going to say something along the lines of, “The ones you wouldn't expect would be the ones to do something like that.”, but again, its unlikely to me.  Mostly because of the third reason, that I bring my own food and drinks to work.  I always make a couple coffees in the morning, and I bring my own water bottle to work.  The reason is that we do not have a coffee maker and I don't want to spend extra money, and my work never has any water bottles, so I brink my own, and I keep my water in my car until I am done with my coffee.  Also, I don't always eat lunch, but when I do I bring my own can of soup and bowl.  This is mainly because there is never any room in the fridge so I bring food that I don't have to refrigerate.

I realize that this sounds a bit paranoid but I promise you all that it is not.

Two or three people have suggested to me that maybe the watchers are robots, and that is why the blood looked like motor oil.  I really don't find that likely.  The blood wasn't oil, it was dark old blood, and I saw deep into that watcher's face, I didn't see any metal in there.  If I was to believe that they were robots, I would say they were closer to cyborgs with cybernetics in their brains, but even that I find unlikely.

I've inspected that body since I killed it, and I haven't found any scars or fresh incisions on their neck up.  I've even looked through their hair.  Deep in the knife wound there isn't any evidence of metal or circuitry, so I need to rule that out for now. 

Now onto some of the more intriguing questions/suggestions that I've received.  Now keep in mind that I'm not ruling any of these out, I am just speaking my opinion on these matters and what I think is likely/unlikely.

Did I die in the accident?  No, I don't think so.  The post crushed my right thigh and my right forearm.  There was no damage to the left side of my body, my torso, or my head.  Now, I suppose there could have been complications from the surgery, like maybe they nicked my femoral artery, or there was an complication with the anesthesia, but that would mean one or two things.  If I was dead, that means the afterlife is just more life,  and I find it extremely hard to believe that.  I can believe in a heaven, or a hell, or reincarnation, or just a vast empty, nothingness.  But regular monotony for months until something otherworldly happens?  I find that a little bit of a stretch.  Not only that, but that would also mean my dying mind or my spirit came up with all of you people that I'm talking to.

It could be possible, but I highly doubt it.

A similar question was did I fall into a coma?  Just like the above question, I don't think so.  I honestly find that more likely than being dead, but I still don't think that was possible, for the same reasons above.  No fatal injury, but maybe possible with surgery complications.

I have received multiple suggestions that I am in a computer simulation, and that's why people on the outside can't see me, and that you people on Reddit are maybe friendly AI or something along those lines.  This one I find very unsettling, because I have a hard time arguing against that.  For the simple reason that if this was a computer simulation, how could I prove it right or wrong?  If it is a simulation, does that mean my entire life is a simulation, or that recently I was put into a simulation?  If I was recently put in a simulation, was it from the accident till now, or was I put in it sometime after the accident?

There are too many variables and uncertainties with the idea of a computer simulation that I would drive myself crazy trying to figure it out.  Maybe that is the point, but I can't afford to worry about it.  Regardless if I'm in a simulation, I can't control it either way.  I can just hope this is reality and continue onward.

Am I in an experiment or in a drugged state?  I honestly don't know.  I don't think I am in a drugged state, mostly because of the same reasons as stated above.  I haven't had an IV since my stay with the surgery, and if I was drugged since then, then why hasn't my life been rainbows and dragons, or in a state of near euphoria?

Now do I think this is an experiment?  Almost certainly.  This is all to weird to not be an experiment in one way or another.  But what is this experiment for?  I have absolutely no idea.  Experiments are normally about getting specific results, but I don't know what the expected results would be.  Maybe this is all an insane way to test my limits or to make me better, or maybe it is to test the limits of human sanity.  I honestly cannot say.

Someone asked if I am in a time loop of some sort.  No, not fully.  At this point I have been here for a week in normal time (I think) and I can say that I have been here for over a day in the slowed down time I find myself in.  If I was in a loop, I would have had the same original appointment with Dr. Ashby, and the watcher that I killed would be alive.

Both of those haven't happened.  So I don't think there is a full look, but I do think that the watchers are in a sort of loop.  Best way that I could explain them would be like NPC's in video games.  They seem to be programmed with a set of tasks, and once they complete those tasks, they go back to the beginning of the list and go back through.

Now what does this mean?  I have no idea, but I feel like I am getting closer to the answer.

Now, there are several comments directly regarding Dr. Ashby, and I am going to try and answer them all in the chunk below.

I will start this off that I haven't seen him in some time, and that does concern me quite a bit, more so because of the notes he was taking regarding me.

Someone suggested that I take Dr. Ashby hostage.  Like I said above, I haven't seen him in some time, which means I can't do that.  What is strange is that I get the feeling like I did when he was watching me.  When he was taking notes on me, my ears felt hot and I could almost feel eyes on the back of my head.  I still get that feeling, but when I turn around I don't see him.  I don't even see the blur of someone moving out of sight, there just isn't anyone there.

Also, I feel like holding him hostage won't do anything, and will just be extra work with no results.  The problem is, I don't know if Ashby is behind the watchers or not.  He might be a watcher himself, and since he was one of the last people to speak with me, that he is just keeping track.

That being said, if I do find Ashby again, I'm not going easy on him.  I have my knife, and I will get any information out of him that I can.  It might sound contradictory to what I stated above, but hear me out.  If there is a higher force here that is above Ashby, I don't think that it will care if threaten to hurt him.  Where if I do hurt him, maybe that will get me some results, if not, then maybe some useful information.

I have been given the suggestion of taking Dr. Ashby's phone and looking through it for information.  Not a bad suggestion, and I fully intend to, I just need to find him.  Also, forcing his passwords out of him would be necessary.

Now this last one seems a little out of left field, but it is worth considering.  Someone suggested that all of the watchers are people who went crazy in the hospital and died.  Dr. Ashby would have resurrected them and they are doing his bidding.  I really don't know how to answer this one.  Really, it seems too far fetched to me to say yes to, but there are too many variables to disregard.  Like, the idea that my orthopedic specialist is resurrecting people seems so unrealistic to me.  But the fact that the watcher I killed bled old blood, that's something I can't dispute.  The fact that the blood looked like that points to the person being dead, yet they were moving.  I can't get around that.

The first part of that suggestion is also intriguing to me.  That all the people currently in and out of the hospital went crazy and died sounds so preposterous, and yet I can't think of anything to disprove it.  Now I don't feel like I am going crazy, but if I was stuck here for a lot longer of a period of time, who knows.  The static here is blaring and maybe that is what drove them made and what will make me crazy.

There really are too many variables with this one to say forsure.  

Now, this last part of answering you guys will be the things I am going to try.  Please don't think that I am disregarding everything else you Redditors have said.  I appreciate any help and feedback I can get.  But some suggestions seem doable and more realistic than others, and those are the ones I am going to address now.

I am paraphrasing a bit here, but I was advised to 'play along' with Dr. Ashby.  What I mean by this is that a handful of people have suggested I make another appointment with Dr. Ashby, or I call him and try to change my followup to a sooner date.  I love this idea, and I am going to try this.  The way I look at it, one of two things will happen.

Option 1:  I will get access to Ashby and I will be able to get information out of him, like I mentioned above.

Option 2:  Maybe I need to play by the rules in this place.  No, that doesn't mean that I am giving up, it means that I am just thinking laterally.  If I ask the right questions, maybe I can figure out what is really happening here, and maybe I will get some clues on how to get out of here.

Obviously, if this works, I will try playing along before I try hurting Dr. Ashby.

Another person suggested that I try and converse with the watchers from a distance.  I really like this idea, because I didn't think of it.  I have tried to talk to them, and the only success I have had was talking about their position at the hospital (which again goes into my playing along plan).  But maybe if there is a distance between myself and a watcher, I can try and converse with it, or provoke it enough for something to happen.

I will try both of these ideas and will touch upon the results on my next update.

I've been asked a by a couple people how they can help.  Honestly, just comment and message me with ideas.  There isn't a lot that anyone can physically do.  I will refuse to give anyone my address because I don't want anyone else to get trapped here.  Worse than that, I don't want to have more proof that I am invisible to the real world.  I normally don't subscribe to being intentionally ignorant, but right now, Reddit feels like it's the only anchor to my sanity.  If that was to go away, and someone from Reddit was able to give me proof that they were at my location and I wasn't here, I don't know what I would do.

Sometimes ignorance is bliss.

Also, I do realize that the longer I stay here, the less of a chance I have to get out.  People have said that me wanting to check this out from the inside is like a death sentence, and they may be right, but from where I'm at, I can't leave.  So I need to figure out what this is, or I have to go all 1408 on this building and burn it down.

I just hope it doesn't come to that.

Finally, here is what's been going on since my last post.

When I ended my last post, I stated that all the watchers in their cars were standing outside of the outpatient windows and I could see their eyes flashing when the static was going off.  Like any sane person, I got away from the windows and went somewhere safe.  I waited for hours, but there was no sound of glass breaking or footsteps charging through the doors.  Eventually the sun started to come up, and all the watchers who were outside went back to their cars.

Now, periodically I went back to check that entrance, and I noticed that their eyes only flashed like that when the static was going through the PA system.  This made me do a little experiment of my own.  I found a spot where I had a view of the cafeteria, and I waited till the static came back.  When it went off, and all the watcher's heads snapped up, I could see their faces.  Their mouths hung open and their eyes were wide, and they were flashing with that same pink light.

So I do have that knowledge, but I'm not sure what it means.

This might be a far out idea, but the static seems to be like a radio signal that keeps the watchers programmed like watchers.  I still hold my opinion that they aren't robots, but this type of tech does seem a little too advanced to be human, doesn't it?  There is some sort of time and reality distortion and people who are being controlled by static, who have pink eyes when the static is on and when they die, aqnd they have old blood in them.

What the hell does this all mean?

What I have been mainly doing though is disconnecting phone receivers and smashing security cameras.  If I take away lines to the PA, and if I take away the digital eyes, then maybe that will force a move on the watcher's end.  It's just a theory right now but it is keeping me focused and busy.

So far, the phones have stayed disconnected, which is reassuring.  I have also been taking naps periodically, never in one place for more than a short time.

So far there hasn't been much of a reaction with the watchers, but I have lessened the amount of static, which I think is a good thing.

I think I am getting closer to the PA room, and I really hope that I find it soon.

There is an answer there, I can feel it.

Until next time, take care everyone.

- Cody S